.Monday, March 30, 2009 ' 10:53 PM Y
♥ her story begins now
I’m afraid to lose someone I love most.
I don’t want to lose anymore.
I can’t bare to see myself in a great heart pain.
One by One people will leave me.
I lost most of my friends.
I lost my love ones.
Now, I found 1.
& I cant bare to lose again.
You’re more than anything I want in this world.
Despite being hurt.
For all the rumors.
The shit we gone thru together.
Sacrifices we made.
Well, my heart will never changed.
Promises are made.
Actions never take.
Sorry for making this up.
Afraid of the word call ‘REJECT’ & ‘BREAK UPS’
It’s a phobia in my life.
The word ‘REJECT’ can be so hurtful.
It can still be cured.
But when it comes to the word ‘BREAK UPS’
It feels that it’s the end of this world.
My mind will go Nuts.
It can be carried away by doing something Violence.
Yes, that’s me.
All I could know by doing something violence will make my mind set up.
It clears everything in my head.
It sounded stupid.
But it’s the fact.
Leaving me behind for 3 months is a big TEST for me.
It’s a challenge!
I can’t bare to be apart with you for so long.
Without you, it means Nothing to me.
Time flies so fast.
In a few days time you’re leaving.
Leaving for good.
I really hope you will just leave me for 3 months
&& not forever.
The reason why I’m blogging this,
Is to let everybody who read my blog know.
That how much I love You.
I love you more than myself.
You are the light to my Darkness.
You bring back my happiness.
After the sadness that the past given me.
You totally bring up my happiness.
You always make me smile.
Even when you show me the past.
It hurts but still I know that you love me & only me.
The past are always the past.
It can’t never be turn back.
Baby, you are the only guy I love.
Never I regret leaving the past & have you in my life.
No one is as GREAT as you Sayang.
Remember this in your head.
I will always love you no matter what.
&& I will not forget the promises I made.
After the 3 months, I’ll assure you that my promises made are real
&& not just an empty talk.
Forever Sayang, I promise.
Ps: Mimi sayang Didi (:
